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I'm sorry

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Published: Feb 27, 2014

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I'm sorry
That I will never make eye contact with you
And I'm sorry
That I don't talk all the time.

But I can't help it if I'm nervous.
I'm not self-assured like you.
It's not my fault if I stutter
And forget what I'm trying to say.

I'm sorry
That I can't be confident like you
And I'm sorry
That I could never give a presentation well.

But I can't help it if I'm nervous.
I'm not sociable like you.
It's not my fault I always worry
What others say and do.

I'm sorry
That I can never have a proper chat with you.
And I'm sorry
That I can't be carefree in class like you.

But I can't help it if I'm nervous.
I'm not outgoing like you.
It's not my fault I'm always stressed
By social situations.

I'm sorry you're so much more sociable,
I'm sorry I can't be,
But I really can't change,
So please don't try to force me.

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